Like all Mothers I am extremely proud of
my children, the are excelling every day, always making me laugh (or
tear my hair out) I couldn't imagine life without them, I can only
assume life would be bleak as all I every wanted was a family of my own
so they are my everything and more.
With the day to day routines of school, tantrums and rushing around the house trying to undo the mess they may have created and sadly losing as they are so cheeky and magically manage to create chaos just by looking at something I often forget what they started of as, this defenseless ball of cuteness, now they are all still cute, a lot bigger than they ever were and hardly defenseless at home! So some times it's nice to reflect on what they were like, and how they came into this world :)
Now all three stories are very different and the ages I had them reflect that!
With the day to day routines of school, tantrums and rushing around the house trying to undo the mess they may have created and sadly losing as they are so cheeky and magically manage to create chaos just by looking at something I often forget what they started of as, this defenseless ball of cuteness, now they are all still cute, a lot bigger than they ever were and hardly defenseless at home! So some times it's nice to reflect on what they were like, and how they came into this world :)
Now all three stories are very different and the ages I had them reflect that!
I'm sure there will be plenty of people who will judge me but I am as proud as can be when it comes to my children and always will be.
Leo Harvey
I found out that I was pregnant at 17, before I took the test I thought I would be extremely happy if it came back positive
but when it did a wave of fear just swept over me, I was scared that
something would happen to me, something could happen to the baby, what
my parents would say, grandparents, friends..everything! I had Luke
though who wanted to scream from the roof tops that we were having a
baby but I asked him to wait, I was just to scared of how people would
react, I hid the pregnancy for 5 months, I came so close to telling my
Mum on so many occasions so close but someone would either walk into the
room or she would say something that would make me chicken out of
telling her, at about 4 months pregnant I had a pain in my chest on the
right side, every time I took a breath the pain traveled around to my
back, I just thought It was the baby growing and taking up space and
just dealt with it until I got to 5 month Pregnant, I had a fever, going
hot and cold, sweating, I could hardly breath! and the pain had gotten
worse, My doctor wasn't local but Luke and I decided to take a trip to
the local doctors surgery and see if I could be seen, we walked in and
got turned away despite that fact I was pretty much a grey colour and I
could barely breath so e got on the bus to the hospital, I explained the
fact that I was pregnant an nobody knew and that I had a pain in my
chest for the past month or so, the first doctor to check me over
basically said that it was purely down to the stress of keeping the
secret but another doctor came and hooked me up to an ECG machine and
the results came back and they wanted to keep me in for tests, they took
bloods, blood pressure, urine everything..whilst lying the a hospital
bed I asked Luke to ring my Mum and explain the situation so he call her
"Liz is being kept in Hospital, they don't know whats wrong with her
and we are on the maternity ward" Now my Mum thought I was early
pregnant and asked him how far I was "5 months" Now I can't imagine what
must have gone through her head at that point! she came to the hospital
rubbed my belly and said that I could have told her and not to worry,
at that point I think she was more worried about what state I was in.
That Night I stayed in hospital on my own, Luke went home to explain to
all of the family etc
Now I was laying the the bed and it was getting harder and harder to breath, I remember watching a clock to my right hand side and every time it ticked a second I took a breath and the next second breathed out, it was either that or I would stop, and nurse popped her head in and asked if I was ok, I said no and started crying saying that I couldn't breath, she bought over and oxygen mask and told me to keep it on and got a doctor in, they moved my down to the labour ward so that I had my own room until they figured out what was up with me....I'll cut to the chase they first thought It was a bladder infection that spread to my kidneys and then to my chest and then they suspected a blood clot until they Took and Xray and a VQ Scan which showed I have Pneumonia, I was put on the high dependency unit for a few days pumped full of fluids and antibiotics, I was told that if I hadn't had gone in within those 12-24 hours I would have been dead, It was awful, I was weak, in pain and feeling guilty for this baby that could have been lost with me.
Now I was laying the the bed and it was getting harder and harder to breath, I remember watching a clock to my right hand side and every time it ticked a second I took a breath and the next second breathed out, it was either that or I would stop, and nurse popped her head in and asked if I was ok, I said no and started crying saying that I couldn't breath, she bought over and oxygen mask and told me to keep it on and got a doctor in, they moved my down to the labour ward so that I had my own room until they figured out what was up with me....I'll cut to the chase they first thought It was a bladder infection that spread to my kidneys and then to my chest and then they suspected a blood clot until they Took and Xray and a VQ Scan which showed I have Pneumonia, I was put on the high dependency unit for a few days pumped full of fluids and antibiotics, I was told that if I hadn't had gone in within those 12-24 hours I would have been dead, It was awful, I was weak, in pain and feeling guilty for this baby that could have been lost with me.
After
that I had a smooth pregnancy I was due on the 28th of March but went
into labour in the early hours of the 30th, Myself, Luke and my Mum got
to hospital, I was sent to be assessed, I remember laying on the bed and
the nurse saying to me "your contractions aren't that strong, your
probably not even dilated" I was kind of saddened and Its was pretty
painful, well it turned out I was 4cm I got a sarcastic apology and told
to go and wait in the waiting area, I was taken to the room I was going
to give birth in some time after, at this point I was in a panic, I was
embarrassed because Luke and my Mum were there, I was scared of the
pain to come so I opted for an epidural (Far to soon) The epidural only
worked on one side at first so I had to be tipped to one side until it
fully worked, I managed to get a little sleep and before I knew it I was
10cm the midwife at the time said it was time to puch but she was going
to leave me a bit longer, an hour or so went by and another midwife
entered the room and asked us what was going on, we explained that I had
been waiting to push but the midwife that said so was nowhere to be
seen! I was told that she had ended her shift and that she should have
let someone know, or not left me there, So this midwife got me pushing,
but the baby's head got stuck and I was rushed to theater where I had a
forceps delivery, I remember the midwife showing me him and making a
comment about how long his eyelashes were, I couldn't believe my eyes,
he was tiny, he had dark hair and he was beautiful!
He was born at 10.27am and weighed 7lb 14oz
He was born at 10.27am and weighed 7lb 14oz
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Fai Amia
My second Pregnancy was quite smooth, a
small spout of morning sickness, a few leg cramps and up and down moods
but Its was by far the easiest! I went for the 20 scan expecting another
boy but delighted that I was going to have a girl, We couldn't wait!
On
the 24th of July I went to hospital with breathing problems and was
kept in (purely because I was over due as I was due on the 19th) with a
suspected blood clot, I was so scared that It was another spout of
pneumonia but in the end it turned out to be Asthma induced by stress
(There was a lot of stuff going on back home)
I
was sitting in the bed hooked up to the machine that monitors babies
heart rate and Luke said "It looks like your having contractions" I was
like don't be silly! until the nurse came in shortly after and confirmed
that he was right! and then discharged me stating that I would more
than likely be back that evening, It was the 25th at this point, I went
home and I couldn't sleep as I was anticipating what was to come, but
nothing came just tightenings, on the 26th I waited all day for
something to happen but nothing until about 6pm or so when I felt the
need to go back to hospital, So I booked a cab and went back, I remember
being in the cab trying not to scream every time a contraction came! We
got into the room where we were finally going to meet out little girl
and we had the mot amazing midwife, she told me that I was 6cm Dilated, I asked for a low dose of epidural which came at about 7-8cm and I was in heaven! I was going to
have a successful labour in this room and that was that!!
My lovely midwife that had been rubbing my back and cheering me on
was about to go off of her shift and introduced me to my new midwife,
now this lady came in like a Sargent Major! "open your legs!" I need to
see how dilated you are" Now I was far from amused! But I was sidelined
by the fact I needed to push and Midwife Number one said "why don't you
do some practice pushes if you need to" so I started pushing, both
midwives clearly didn't think baby was low enough until they saw babies
head! and Midwife number 2 said that midwife number 1 might as well
stay as baby was coming now! I was pushing and pushing and by god do I
remember crowning I panicked telling them to pull her out! I turned over
and in one massive push I had her, she was taken to be cleaned up and I
remember not being able to lay down properly as I was hurting to much
in the obvious place and I couldn't hold her right away, I had a second degree tear that needed stitching along with bad grazing! But she was more that worth it.
She was Born on the 27th of July at 4.04am Weighing 8lb 9oz
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Livy Rae & Riley Phoenix
Now in 2009 before I was due my period I
knew I was pregnant, I was extremely tired and my boobs felt like the
had been whacked repeatedly with some sort of iron bar, I was at my
friend Nikki's when I took the test, The test came up positive right
away with a very dark prominent positive line, Nikki said that I could
be further gone that I thought due to how quick the line came up and how
dark it was but I was pretty sure I was only a few weeks gone. I booked
my 12 weeks scan which was due in November, during those weeks I waited
for it I had extremely bad morning sickness, worse than ever before, I
threw up every day, the smell of Garlic, basil and onions turned my
stomach, bending down made me sick, I was looking after two young
children whilst trying not to fall asleep constantly, I felt awful but
by the time the scan came its had settled down a lot.
Now
I remember laying on the bed seeing my third baby for the first time,
It was amazing just like the times before, The lady doing the scan was
telling another lady measurements and she was typing the into the
computer and the the lady typing said to the scan lady "Oooh let me do
this bit, I love this bit" I thought nothing of it! she came over and
said this is your baby and here are the legs etc...and then...here is
you second baby, I was like WHAT!!! second baby? Am I having twins!!!???
she said yes, I couldn't help but burst into tears, 1 because of the
shock and 2 How the hell am I going to get them out!!! I laughed my way
through the rest of the scan, Its was uncontrollable!
The
20 scan came quite fast, I assumed I would either have 2 of one sex and
was soon told I was having a boy and girl!! I felt so blessed and
Lucky, I would have been happy with either but I had both which was
amazing! I opted for a medical trial at this scan were by a pessary was
inserted around my cervix to see if it could help prevent me from going
into premature labour, it would be removed at 36 weeks gestation.
At around 30 weeks the pessary started to become uncomfortable along with that pains of being pregnant with 2, I was quite a mess, my pubic bone felt as though it was breaking, my hips felt the same, walking was starting to become torture, I wanted the pessary out just to take one of the many pains away but I waited until 34 weeks until I asked to have it removed, I remember having it removed at 34 week +4 days, when the Doctor removed it I have a huge pain shoot up my belly, I had never felt anything like it! from that point I was in a huge amount of pain, I was on the bus on the way home, now I never usually minded standing on the bus but after having the pessary removed I needed a seat I just wanted to cry I was in so much discomfort! Someone was getting out of their seat to get off of the bus I started to make my way to it went I got barged out of the way by 2 men competing to sit down, so I stood all of the way home.
At around 30 weeks the pessary started to become uncomfortable along with that pains of being pregnant with 2, I was quite a mess, my pubic bone felt as though it was breaking, my hips felt the same, walking was starting to become torture, I wanted the pessary out just to take one of the many pains away but I waited until 34 weeks until I asked to have it removed, I remember having it removed at 34 week +4 days, when the Doctor removed it I have a huge pain shoot up my belly, I had never felt anything like it! from that point I was in a huge amount of pain, I was on the bus on the way home, now I never usually minded standing on the bus but after having the pessary removed I needed a seat I just wanted to cry I was in so much discomfort! Someone was getting out of their seat to get off of the bus I started to make my way to it went I got barged out of the way by 2 men competing to sit down, so I stood all of the way home.
At
34+6 weeks I woke up in bed in the early hours wet, I was half asleep
and didn't know what was happening as crazy as it sounds i tried to go
back to sleep but I then realized that my waters had broken!We called
the hospital and was told to go in, Weeks before I had opted for a
C-Section as I was so scared of giving birth to one baby naturally and
then having the have a section with the other, I got to hospital and
they asked if I still wanted the section, I said I would rather wait
until I was in some sort of pain first as I couldn't imagine not feeling
anything before having my babies here.
I was left in a tiny room (store cupboard with a bed) for a few hours until the pains were unbearable, the contractions were coming every 2-3 minutes and I assumed I was at least 6cm, My Midwife examined me and told me that I was only 4cm! I was devastated, that much pain for so little progress! I asked for an epidural and was seen by the anesthetist who went through the procedure with me and said that he would be back in bit to put it in, it was very busy that day and he didn't come back.
I was left in a tiny room (store cupboard with a bed) for a few hours until the pains were unbearable, the contractions were coming every 2-3 minutes and I assumed I was at least 6cm, My Midwife examined me and told me that I was only 4cm! I was devastated, that much pain for so little progress! I asked for an epidural and was seen by the anesthetist who went through the procedure with me and said that he would be back in bit to put it in, it was very busy that day and he didn't come back.
Before
I knew it I was 10cm and I was told I could do some small pushes, so I
did and Bam! my little girl was there before the midwife was ready! I
remember seeing this tiny red baby who just laid there looking at me,
she didn't cry just laid there content :) I asked if I could hold her
and she was handed to me whilst she was in my arms the midwife was
injecting me with Petocin to bring on my contractions to get my little
boy out all of a sudden I had to hand my girl back as a wave of immense
pain come over me, Contraction after contraction but lil man was up by
my ribs and wasn't shifting, The midwife was trying to break his waters,
so did the next doctor and so fourth until the big red button was
pressed and I was whisked away to theater.
The
surgeon said that he was going going to have his attempted at breaking
the waters, I remember laying there and he was doing what ever he needed
to do down that (causing far to much pain) when the was an almighty
gush and it felt like baby had come out and I remember asking is he
here? but I got sat up quite quickly and told I was having a C-Section,
They put in a spinal, put the screen up and started their work, The
anesthetist that I saw earlier asked if I have remembered him and that
me and the baby had given them all a scare, baby came out quiet but was
soon screaming, I was told that when the waters were broken baby's arm
came out first which could have broken his neck, but he was fine thank
god.
On the 22nd of April They were born, Livy Rae Weighed 5lb 8oz and Riley 5lb 13oz
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